Ever had a secret that you never told anyone? Not even your two best friends in the world? I know I do. I’ve had a personal secret that I’ve never shared with anyone…except the one other person that it involved.
For the very first time, I was seriously in love with someone who loved me for me, and who cared for me like no one else had. He was my soul mate. My “Prince Charming”. My. Best. Friend. He was everything that I could of ever dreamed of.
A personal event happened that was going to change our lives forever. We were happy and excited. Looking forward to our future together. Then my world was turned upside down, and everything changed. He walked out of my life, never to talk to me again.
He was the one who wanted me to succeed. He knew that I could be the girl that I always dreamt of myself becoming. He was my rock. My support. The minute he left, I gave up on everything. I didn’t go to school. I didn’t want to do anything. I just wanted to die. I felt like my world was coming to end, and it wasn’t worth living anymore…
“you were my conviction. my happiest concern. then it all came down when luck was gonna turn. gravity has come, it’s done this once before and now i’m feeling sweet nothing, sweet, sweet, nothing…”
It’s been almost six years, and I have honestly never fully recovered. The only thing that kept me going was the news that I was going to be a “Ninang” (Godmother), and this was the time Leah and I began to become REALLY close. She was only 9 years old at the time, so she didn’t fully understand that she was helping me get through a very difficult time in my life. To this day, she still doesn’t know.
For those of you who’ve gotten to know me recently, and say that I have so much passion and heart, I really wish you could’ve met the girl I was six years ago. I was so driven, and so happy, filled with nothing but high hopes for the future. I think you would’ve liked her more. I honestly wish I could still be that girl…
People come into your life for a reason, and I can’t even being to express how much I appreciate the girls that have come into my life these past few years. I honestly believe that if it wasn’t for them, I most likely wouldn’t be here now…
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